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Money of the world are fake documents. These are numbers which don’t conform to the reality.

For example, I was religiously discriminated. For this reason I was led to leave university study. For this reason, I am much poorer than I could be. So everybody who would refuse my million dollar check for me being to poor would violate anti-discrimination laws. So everybody holds documents on which wrong information about me is written.

So everybody accordingly our laws must be put into a prison. Especially because I almost died because of discrimination. You are legally a killer.

Probably the worst thing here was that I was also discriminated for the reason that I refused to agree with people about them being worth.

So it became a vicious circle.

What is the escape? It is here.

I have a plan for you. I don’t insist you should follow it, but you should consider it:

Do you have a big church which brings some donations? Sell it. Use the money to buy shares of AdaCore, a programming corporation located in US.

I don’t joke.

You want to save the world? You want to make it prosperous? It makes no sense without first solving this problem.

Oh, you preach Gospel? Isn’t it more important? Our theology had an error. Our sermons were wrong because of this error. Does it make sense to continue your business?

So you may buy shares of AdaCore to gain majority and vote to transform it into a nonprofit to solve the problem.

I wrote this to make you consider other variants than what you are currently doing.

All of us sin much (Jam. 3:2). We are pushed to other’s wives, cannot work when we need to, forget phone numbers of our friends, etc.

Also a sinner is very badly connected with the Lord.

The current state of the mind (brain) man is this (The rectangle is the brain):

Almost all space in our brain is taken by sin. “Me” is small. It is so small that we cannot even count in mind and remember phone numbers.

For about one month I was transformed by the Lord into a superman as described in this article. Superman works 20 hours per day, remembers everything, moves his hands with above the speed of the sound, can throw a truck into air, his flesh is hard as steel, does not spend much time for eating. Most importantly he all the time calculates in mind like a computer. His sermons cause people to fall. (I mean to fall onto the ground, not spiritual fall.) He can build a thermonuclear reactor, develop a plan of Mars colonization, control human economy, etc. He would probably work as a UN general secretary, eminence grise of the world, or just a scientist, preacher, or all of them. Not sure who exactly.

Here is the diagram of a superman:

The mind takes most space of the brain. Superman is not a sinner (no sin on the diagram or it is pushed to become very small and harmless, except that it may cause an unexpected failure suddenly as happened with me after this wonderful month passed). But it is not what the Lord wants from us. It can be even better. I concluded so because of the Bible. Superman has a stone heart. Literally, a bullet-proof heart hard as a stone. While the superman works 20 hours per day and this does not cause him to wear, God says He will give us rest: (Mt. 11) “28 Come to me, all you that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke on you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and you shall find rest to your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”, (Heb. 4:1) “Let us therefore fear, lest, a promise being left us of entering into his rest, any of you should seem to come short of it.”, (Heb. 4) “3 For we which have believed do enter into rest, as he said, As I have sworn in my wrath, if they shall enter into my rest: although the works were finished from the foundation of the world. 4 For he spoke in a certain place of the seventh day on this wise, And God did rest the seventh day from all his works. 5 And in this place again, If they shall enter into my rest.” Also the Millennium is called “shabat” that is rest in Bible.

But who is a superman a human or a computer more? Or rather to say, a user or a computer? He is his own user. He is his own computer. God wants us to be humble that is not greedy for computing power. This means that the superman needs to be more a human than a computer. A small more human-like mind which does not use much calculating power should control the rest of the computer. This is a way to partition the computer into two parts: the user and the computer itself. This is depicted on the following diagram:

The superman is connected with the Lord but he wants to think himself or maybe is just not always answered by the Lord to test him.

But one element on the last diagram is superfluous: The computer in the brain is not needed, because the mind of the Lord is more powerful (in fact infinitely powerful) anyway.

So it can be this instead:

“Me” does not need to be big, because the Lord is big instead. Not sure if the Lord will make it in such a way that “me” could be able to grow to the entire power of the brain if he wants to, but the essence that we will not need this anymore.

(John 3:30) “He must increase, but I must decrease.”

Now we are connected with the Lord very badly. Usually at best we see visions or something like this. The difference with the future is that we will be being connected with the Lord tightly will be freed from sin and under influence of the Lord do not behave wrong or suffer anymore.

(Is 2:11) “The lofty looks of man shall be humbled, and the haughtiness of men shall be bowed down, and the LORD alone shall be exalted in that day.” Bible does not say that we will be great (supermen) but that Lord will be great.

We will not need stone heart because no one will try to kill us with a bullet in the kingdom of God.

It seems that transforming all of us into supermen with stone hearts is an intermediary stage of coming the kingdom of God, because Bible says that God will take stone heart out of our flesh and put there heart of flesh (Ezek. 11:19) “And I will give them one heart, and I will put a new spirit within you; and I will take the stony heart out of their flesh, and will give them an heart of flesh” and (Ezek. 36:26) “A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you: and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you an heart of flesh.” and (Heb. 4:7) “To day if you will hear his voice, harden not your hearts.”, (Heb. 4) “9 There remains therefore a rest to the people of God. 10 For he that is entered into his rest, he also has ceased from his own works, as God did from his. 11 Let us labor therefore to enter into that rest, lest any man fall after the same example of unbelief.” For this to be able happen, the stone heart needs to be there first.

(John 19) 28 After this, Jesus, knowing that all was already accomplished, that the Scripture might be fulfilled, says: I thirst. 29 Here was a vessel full of vinegar. Having filled a vinegar with a sponge and put it on hyssop, they brought it to His mouth. 30 And when Jesus tasted the vinegar, he said: It is done. And bowing his head, he delivered the spirit.

After that, knowing that everything had already happened, so that the whole Bible could be fulfilled, he says that he really wants (for this to happen). He says that he really wants the Bible to come true. For this, it must be fully interpreted as I teach in this sermon.

There was a “vessel”, that is, literally (material) goods, (figuratively) apparatus. The vessel is already standing, they only need to properly distribute to people.

What is called vinegar here is a cheap anesthetic. This is a “cheap” means to stop the suffering of the body of Christ on Earth, such as, for example, the universal rent, so that no one dies of hunger, as almost happened to me.

Let us translate further: “After drinking” this “vinegar” the “sponge” of the poor, who are ready to “absorb” any money.

It also means nourishing with “vinegar” the “sponge” of people who want to know the answers to their questions.

The sponge is brought to His mouth, that is, to little people (Matthew 10:42; 18:10), through which He speaks, to those who have been unfairly discredited, have not been allowed to develop in their business, appear in the media, etc. “His mouth: can also mean the “mouth” of the Bible.

When Jesus receives this cheap remedy, then this event will take place.

By reducing (“bowing”) the value of the human head, Jesus transmits the spirit, that is, establishes our connection with the cosmos. We will no longer need such a big brain. “To bow” also means to erase, so perhaps Jesus will erase the no longer necessary memory from human brains, because the Spirit will decide everything.

In continuation of this sermon:

In the new age, starting of the Millennial Kingdom, which God has revealed to me, we should change our spiritual principles.

Before we were closed to the spiritual world, but now God gives a new revelation:

(Jonh 19) 26 When Jesus therefore saw his mother, and the disciple standing by, whom he loved, he said to his mother, Woman, behold your son! 27 Then said he to the disciple, Behold your mother! And from that hour that disciple took her to his own home.

The disciple means these who study the word of God that is Protestants.

Before following the will of God for us we were refusing to contact with our star, the Sun.

Now (Rev. 12) “1 And there appeared a great wonder in heaven; a woman clothed with the sun, and the moon under her feet, and on her head a crown of twelve stars: 2 And she being with child cried, travailing in birth, and pained to be delivered … 5 And she brought forth a man child, who was to rule all nations with a rod of iron: and her child was caught up to God, and to his throne.”

The child is definitely Jesus. So the mother is St. Mary. She is closed with the Sun. Bible says that (Dan. 12:3) “And they that be wise shall shine as the brightness of the firmament; and they that turn many to righteousness as the stars for ever and ever.” This means that saints transform into spirits of stars. St. Mary is our Sun here, but she has other stars too.

Now we need to enter into contact with our Sun. We should love she like our mother.

In continuation of this sermon (more precisely, about the words of the Bible before those):

John 19

20 This announcement was read by many of the Jews, because the place where Jesus was crucified was not far from the city, and it was written in Hebrew, in Greek, in Roman. 21 And the chief priests of the Jews said to Pilate, Do not write: the King of the Jews, but what He said: I am the King of the Jews. 22 Pilate answered: What I wrote, I wrote.

The meaning is something like this:

By announcement, God means what the Bible says, especially this fragment of the Bible and in general my blog has to do with it.

“Read” literally means “know again.” This means that we recognize God, whom we have forgotten, again and that we will again know the forgotten knowledge of antiquity.

Jews are both Jews in the literal sense and Christians (spiritual Jews). It is also Messianic Jews.

City is the word single-rooted with profit, make profit. This means that the practical benefits for us are not far from the place of the Bible where Jesus was crucified. Apparently, this and the adjacent places of the Bible should be studied especially carefully. It also means the doctrine and movement of prosperity (see below).

“Hebrew, Greek, Roman” means three Christian denominations: Messianic Jews, Orthodox and Greek Catholics, and Catholics.

Pilate is what prevents Christians from developing, oppressing, discriminating. Pilate is the one who crucified Jesus, that is, this is my “self-conceit”. Or Pilate is our understanding of the word of God. Pilate is also the image of Jesus, Jesus is putting himself to death, because all the words of the Bible speak of Jesus (John 5:39).

The king of the Jews means the foundation of our religion, that is, the Torah, because the word “king” is one-root with the word “foundation”.

“He said: I am the King of the Jews” means that the Bible says that it is the foundation of the faith of the Jews and Christians.

Jesus means intergalactic contact code.

“Crucified” means Christ’s self-denial, that is, His renunciation of old Christianity.

So:

What God began to reveal through me will be read by many Christians and even Jews. This is because the doctrine of prosperity, although it is not in the place where Jesus’s cross is, but not far from it, but God decided to begin to bless us, to unfold this my (but not mine, but His) plan. That is, real prosperity is when we apply the cross of Jesus within ourselves, which is a source of inner blessing (such as glory and knowledge of God within us, the presence of the Holy Spirit), and therefore external (money, for example, public good, in general).

The place where we lost intergalactic contact, that is, the name of Jesus, not far from the “city”. That is, a little more is not enough for our cities to live in contact (the Millennial Kingdom). This means that for contact you need to connect with the crucifixion of Jesus.

What is written, is written for Messianic Jews, Orthodox and Catholics. If you are a Messianic Jew, Orthodox or Catholic, then this is primarily for you. Do not ignore.

The hierarchs of Christians taught to apply the foundation of the Jews, that is, the Torah, that she, the Torah, says that it is necessary to apply it to the “I”, that is, to myself. This is wrong: watch this sermon.

“He answered” means that Jesus began to answer us. A new stage of history began, Jesus spoke to us like never before. In other words, the seals of the book about which the Apocalypse speaks, that is, the seven “codes” of the secrets of the Bible, are beginning to be removed, but I am too lazy to write now about this in detail.

The word “wrote” is one-root with the word “Scripture,” which means that Jesus, betraying His body, that is, the Church (which means the end of the Gospel era and the beginning of the transition to the Millennium Kingdom) to spiritual death, answers us that what He wrote He himself wrote, speaking of the Bible. Jesus confirms that these are actually His words. This is another strong confirmation that God is really saying something through me, even though I can distort His words. But at the same time, it wrote our understanding of the word of God (Pilate), which closes the truth from us. These are His words, not our invention, but it says Pilate, that is, it is said through our desire to kill Jesus, that is, to cease contact.

You can also translate “what I wrote, wrote “me”.” That which destroys the life of Jesus in us is when our “me” writes. But it can be translated and “what “me” wrote, “me” wrote.” This means that what we write from our “I”, interpreting the Bible, the Lord writes through us. Or else “what “me” wrote, “me” wrote.” What our “I” writes is written by our “I”, and not entirely by God.

The above shows us, even though I cannot formulate them precisely, the principles of studying the Bible within the framework of a specific plan that God revealed to me in this sermon. Understand the meaning of the word “Pilate” as Jesus, who is surrendering to death, and re-read the above fragment of the Bible yourself.

I received a mad “revelation”. See my earlier sermon.

But a word from God cannot be a rave. Where is the error? I appeared to finally understand what was the case:

I translated Jn. 19:23-25 with the Greek in an unusual way (a little modified the unusual translation, which I made just changing words with their alternative meanings (homonyms) from the dictionary or derived meanings of the words with the same root, exactly according to Greek grammar):

soldiers (of the celestial army), spreading in couches, who make it stay stable and insert, staying near, and continue safe and healthy and do not shame, staying ready in the presence of others, they made themselves companions and reserved them for themselves, took them (somebody’s personality) by lot into possession, giving her access to themselves, took by hands (the personality to use her), not rejecting but receiving what is offered, the garments of Jesus to put them onto themselves… Also the tunic (holy garments). But the tunic was whole from above, the north of one third of the heaven, woven through all… And they stayed in presence of others ready near the cross of Jesus: mother of Jesus and the sister of the mother Mary and the wife of Clope and Mary Magdalene (that is raised bed).

After reading this (see more details in that sermon), I decided that the Lord calls me to marry as if His mother whose spirit, in my opinion, came down to Maria Putina and began to engage in onanism and sexual fantasies, thinking of something Maria Putina or St. Mary.

I distorted the meaning of the words of the Lord into the contrary. This was for two main reasons:

• I thought that if the meaning of a fragment of the Bible resembles a situation, then this is what this situation is about. The left arrow and the right arrow (contraries) are very similar to each other, there are almost no differences between them. Naturally, with such an approach, I messed them with each other. The Lord wanted to teach us to distinguish similar, but different things.
• I was looking at myself, not at Jesus. I thought the Bible was talking about me, and she was talking only about Jesus (see John 5:39). I had such a theological concept that every word of the Bible is addressed to me personally. That was a mistake.

So the Lord compares His kingdom with “collective” sex.

So the kingdom of God is like a brothel. We and even the saints in heaven are so ridiculously trying to please each other, that we are no different from prostitutes who satisfy their clients. You need to please God. It is written (Ephesians 5:28) “Thus should husbands love their wives as their bodies: he who loves his wife loves himself.” It means doing everything she needs, but not making her your idol. On the Earth, spirits from the sky even made the nonsense, which is called astral sex or sex with aliens.

It is like a frozen computer: If a computer is running some kind of a wrong program, it is in no way different from a hung computer.

Another impression is that these three women, including the very mother of Jesus, were sexually excited, apparently because He hung naked on the cross. And the Bible calls them His sacred garments. What a contrast: we are both sinners and saints at the same time. And He is only a saint.

And what does the word “lot” mean in this fragment of the Gospel? This means that wives are chosen randomly. Someone just marries to the most beautiful girl, someone who is passionate about the idea of ​​marrying somebody good or spiritual, and not beautiful, other things being equal chooses the less beautiful one. This is because we have lost the criterion on which to define spirituality. We have forgotten that these are the sacred garments of Jesus. Someone, as it seems to him, receives a revelation from God: marry just this girl and that’s it. I got confused, not understanding the criteria for choosing a wife, and I was left alone. This happens randomly, as by lot. God needs our heart, not our formal revelation.

The family has become our idol. We have forgotten that there are more important things: the salvation of the world, the economy of our country, scientific research, charity and so on. We are soldiers of the heavenly army, how can we devote our time to worldly things?

Choose wives according to the spirit, as the holy garments of the Lord.

For example, I want to marry a beautiful in my eyes Protestant woman who knows mathematics. I think that if I marry a girl who does not know mathematics, then I will simply hate my wife, because I cannot tolerate stupidity. Well, what if it will be a family if the wife does not even read my books? in my opinion, it is rather a brothel.

(Jos. 1: 2) “And the Lord said to Hosea: Go, take a prostitute for your wife.” Go, said, marry a prostitute. Why did the Lord say to the prophet this? I think because his so-called “spiritual” lover was no better. The Lord simply prompted him to make a better choice. It was a “random” revelation, as by lot.

What else does the Lord want to explain through this highly hype event? The fact that we can find the hidden meaning of the Bible, if we read it with the dictionaries of the original languages, looking for not only human meaning, but also hidden “encrypted” inhuman meaning.

Also (Jn. 19:24):

So the words came: to open Him to each other (together, in a different way), and we will cast lots with the goal of teasing, completing the period/task, checking, coinciding with the prediction, being complete, preaching fully, making the Scriptures perfect: divided into portions or divided my garments among themselves and casted lots for my garments. So did the soldiers (of the heavenly army).

We now have received the words from the Lord: (We will) open His (secrets) to each other differently, but by random whose (these words will be) (decide) to coincide with (this) prediction and complete the task of fully preaching the Bible, (reach) abundance (economic growth) and perfection (freeing from sin), (complete previous) period (if history), check the Bible (that this is a real message from God). Now I know that this is what we will do.

Another meaning: Before the second coming of Christ, the “star-fall” is awaited, that is, the spirits of the stars will descend to Earth: (Rev. 6:13) “And the stars of heaven fell to the earth, even as a fig tree casts her untimely figs, when she is shaken of a mighty wind.” Note that the figs are not yet mature, that is, the algorithms are not perfect. And they can become our wives! We are the same soldiers of the heavenly army, because the stars also fall on us.

1. In this sermon I will tell about my Christian life. This is a very inspiring story.
2. I was born in 1980 in city Perm, Russia.
3. In the childhood I was an atheist. When I was 9 years old, I decided that nothing (nothing at all) exists. With this philosophy I sometimes hit walls because didn’t believe that walls exist.
4. I also tried to kill myself. For example, when a crawler tractor was passing by, I tried to put my head under the caterpillar. Once (being a guest in Kazakhstan), I got out of bed with the firm intention to swim in the middle of the Irtysh River to drown; but they asked me where I was going, and I had to go back to bed.
5. My cousin Svetlana promoted to me a certain religion, which I will not discuss in detail now. At first I laughed, but because of this I wondered: maybe Svetlana’s religion is wrong, but does God indeed exist? After reflection and inner struggle, I came to the conclusion that God exists (and His creation also exists). I refused to commit suicide and decided to find the true religion. I believed that among all religions there should be one true one, and decided to find the true religion. It was at the age of 9 years.
6. Once I saw the Bible for 1000 rubles. Before hyperinflation, it was a very large amount, but I would buy it if I had money.
7. Two or three years later, I received the Gospel of John as a gift from some religious organization. After reading the Gospel of John (albeit a seriously flawed translation of the synod of the Russian Orthodox Church), I thought: this is so well written that it cannot be invented by man, it must be true. But I also thought that I had not yet read the books of so-called “great writers”, such as Leo Tolstoy, Dostoevsky and others. Later, when I studied Leo Tolstoy at school, I came to the conclusion that Leo Tolstoy was not a “great writer,” if we compare him with the Gospel. Besides, after reading the Gospel, I came to the conclusion that the Orthodox Church is not a real church, but if the Gospel is true, then there must be a real church corresponding to the Gospel somewhere – so I guessed that there are Protestants without even knowing the words “Protestant”. I also thought that you had to be a real hero to follow the gospel in this hostile world.
8. Later, I received the full text of the New Testament. Maybe then I was 12-13 years old.
9. Later, for some time I was inclined to Eastern religions, but once I believed in the Gospel and rejected Eastern religions.
10. I wanted to do good, but I could not: I was possessed by demons or, as psychiatrists would say, I had schizophrenia (Later I will tell you how Christ cured me) and the devil forced me do evil.
11. It began with the fact that from the age of five I mortally hated fairy tales (and was ready to kill anyone who somehow reminded me of fairy tales), because when I heard something about fairy tales, I went crazy: I started to think that I am a fabulous character (for example, the humpbacked beast). From the same age, I had bursts of anger: I ran around the room in circles and pounded my hands on the furniture.
12. Later, my madness progressed: for example, I began to see dragons. Where do dragons come from? They entered the building through the walls. Dragons bit (more precisely, took into the mouth and chewed) me. The pain was real.
13. Sometimes it seemed to me that I was in the jungle (in reality, being at home).
14. Once I found myself in the other side of the city a moment after I was in another place. I realized that a part of my memory fell out, as if cutting a fragment of a film and sticking it together without this fragment.
15. My nonsense was on various topics, but perhaps the main “characters” were: toad, crocodile, elephant and tank. I thought that I and other people were toads, crocodiles, elephants and tanks. I was afraid that the crocodile would eat me, the tank would rape me, and so on.
16. To any words “X” I answered: “two Xes”. For example, if they asked me: are you crazy? I could answer: I am two crazies. “Two” meant not what normal people put into this word, but “not one,” that is, “nothing.”
17. Another feature of my nonsense was to rearrange the letters. I rearranged words or the first letters: for example, “two crocodiles” turned into “cro twocodiles”. And I thought that the nonsense that I said is reality. Or, for example, to the question: “Do you go to a school?” I could answer “The school goes to me.” This was accompanied by the delusion of grandeur, since I thought that no one could attend school without me.
18. Once I went to a psychiatric hospital, but instead of asking for help, I said: “I will kill all psychiatrists!” I was kicked out. Once, I tried to make a bomb to blow up a mental hospital. I called the police, telling them that I was making a bomb. They confiscated the bomb, but did not pass me on to psychiatrists.
19. I forgot my name, I forgot how to read and write. It was really terrible: to see the book and understand that I can no longer read.
20. Sometimes I realized that I was crazy. But this did not help: I thought: my thoughts were wrong and often considered just the right thoughts to be nonsense. For example, I thought: It is crazy to consider me a man, because, in fact, I am a toad. Or I thought: Crocodiles do not exist, crocodiles are a fairy tale. Sometimes I understood that my thoughts were self-contradictory and fell to the floor because I did not understand what to do now.
21. Reading math books helped me. Also reading the gospel. But as I went more and more crazy, any reading began to drive me crazy.
22. I did everything I heard: If I heard the word “jump,” I would start jumping; if I heard the word “rape”, I tried to rape someone.
23. Sometimes I growled at people. I bit people, dogs and wheels of cars.
24. Sometimes I thought I was a Hitler. I also said: “It was an ordinary Hitler, and I am a great Hitler.”
25. Sometimes my right side fought with the left side, to the blood.
26. Once, as a demon possessed, I tried to destroy the building of a Baptist church by throwing a car at it. At this I pulled away the bumper from the car. After that, my whole body ached because the devil overloaded my muscles.
27. I was also a killer maniac, that is, I regularly attacked people with a knife to kill.
28. Sometimes I said: I do not want to kill, but the devil forces me to. I also stated: I do not want to kill, but I am a maniac and I cannot not to kill. In my inner essence, I did not want to kill, but later, when the devil took possession of me in a greater degree, I was not sure if I wanted to serve the devil in my inner essence.
29. Once I met a woman mother with a baby in a stroller. I told her: “Call a psychiatrist. If you do not call a psychiatrist, I will kill your child.” But she ignored my words. Then I took a stone and tried to kill the child. She made a very quick movement and intercepted the stone. As far as I remember, the psychiatrist was not called.
30. Once I told a policeman: “I am a maniac killer, give me a gun.” Oddly enough, the policeman gave me a gun. Then I tried to shoot this policeman, but another policeman took away my gun.
31. Once I met a group of people listening to a tape recorder. I declared that I would kill them. I also said: “I will kill the tape recorder!” I crushed it on the ground. After that, I tried to kill the people.
32. Once I met a company of blacks from Africa. I growled and said that I would kill them. One of them replied: “You are a shaman, you can do whatever you want.” So, the same demons possessed me and African pagans.
33. Once I met a group of people and said: “I want to kill as many people as possible and kill myself!” They turned out to be Muslim terrorists. They were delighted, brought me to their hideout, took out a shahid belt and put it on me. Immediately after that, I tried to blow myself up and the terrorists. They stopped me and took back the belt.
34. Once again, I met a group of people and said: “I’m a maniac killer. I want to kill someone.” They said they wanted to use me as a killer and gave me the gun and the address of the victim. I went “on the mission”, but tried to kill the first comer. They took the gun and one of them said: “It was a bad idea to use a maniac as a killer, he would kill a wrong one.”
35. In addition to schizophrenia, I had other illnesses that Christ subsequently cured. I had an incoordination: I often ran into a joint or a wall when I tried to enter the door. And in general, I was a sick child. One day, a Baptist preacher told me that I must be strengthened in spirit and after a few months of such spiritual practice I was practically healthy.
36. At fifteen, the demon almost completely destroyed my mind and my condition quickly deteriorated. At intervals of time when I was in my right mind, I realized that a little more and I would most likely become a fool for life.
37. I felt terrified when I realized that I could not count anymore and could not read: I could see the text, but I could not understand anything.
38. The demon prevented me from converting to Christ: making me forget about wanting to convert, depriving me of wanting to convert, etc., as well as by heresies (I did not believe in the divinity of Christ, which made my conversion impossible). But once I converted; a week later it would probably be too late, since the demon would completely destroy my mind.
39. I tried unsuccessfully to appeal many times. I remained a killer maniac, going to hell and dangerous to other people. My conversion did not work because I did not believe in the divinity of Christ.
40. On Sundays, I sat in a Baptist church and wept, knowing that I was not saved. I listened to sermons and slowly began to understand that I should be saved by Christ through faith only.
41. For some reason I did not believe in the Holy Trinity. Perhaps Jehovah’s Witnesses influenced me (however, now I cannot remember) who do not believe in the Trinity.
42. Once I confessed that I believed in the Holy Trinity. On the same day (August 8, 1995) I climbed under the covers and called for God in my mind.
43. When I got out of the blanket, I thought that someone had turned on the light bulb (or the sun came out from behind the clouds). In fact, no one turned on the light bulb, but my vision changed.
44. I felt a change in my mind. From now on, I am a normal person. I can read and count, I do not bite, I do not see dragons, etc. This is a miracle that happened at one moment while I was under the covers.
45. Over the next few hours, I realized that I was no longer a crazy maniac, because I no longer had hallucinations, rave or anger.
46. This time period I was at home. Three days after the conversion, I went outside and was very surprised: I saw not only a tree or the whole forest, but focused attention on all the trees at the same time, not just one or two trees. This is similar to when someone updates their computer and can play video games at a higher resolution.
47. After three months of my new life, I saw a math problem in a textbook and instead of solving it for some time, as it was before, I instantly understood the answer. The whole decision happened in my mind in one moment.
48. Immediately after my conversion, when I turned from a maniac into a normal person, my parents, their relatives and friends began to shout that I had become a sectarian and an abnormal one. Apparently, the demons that came out of me, entered into them.
49. However, later I was tempted, incorrectly taught in the Baptist church, etc., which hindered the development of spiritual gifts.
50. Once a preacher said that preachers, when they preach, do not mistake. Then, when I was a beginning Christian, it seemed to me quite natural and I took it for granted. But when that preacher began to preach, he made some kind of mistake (I don’t remember which one). From that moment on, I began to search for religious truth only in the Bible.
51. So, I was crazy, converted to Christ and recovered in one moment. Then I will tell you how I turned into a superman (for a period of time, about one or two months).
52. After some time, with the help of the Holy Spirit, I had superpowers: an ideal photographic (like a camera) memory, telepathy, etc.
53. One day I was sitting in front of a computer at a school and writing a program. Suddenly I considered this program in my mind as a computer. This was the beginning of the transformation of my brain into a real computer.
54. I also had a super-power, like Samson, as well as super speed: I began to flap my hands at supersonic speed.
55. The power appeared and disappeared again.
56. When the power appeared unexpectedly, it happened that I was thrown into the air: the muscles in my legs “jerked” (that is, they moved sharply) with too much force. However, it was only when the power appeared unexpectedly. When I consistently had strength for some time, I could restrict the strength of the movements and did not throw me into the air. I think this is what Ilya of Murom meant when he said that “the earth does not hold me”: he was thrown into the air with every movement. Ilya of Murom had to drink “dead water” in order to reduce his strength, so that the Earth would hold him. Since my “inability to be hold” passed after I had been in full force for some time and I didn’t need to become weaker so that the Earth held me, then probably when I had strength I was much stronger than Ilya of Murom.
57. I could do a huge amount of work and not get tired. My body became as hard as steel. I could break a knife by squeezing its blade in my hand. Once I decided to check if I could squeeze the steel, I took a steel object (probably it was a nut or bolt) and clamped it between two hands. Suddenly for me, a piece of steel melted in my hands from the tremendous force with which I squeezed it. Molten steel, flowed on my hands, without causing me any harm. I easily broke the stones with my hands.
58. Once I tried to close the steel safe with a wave of air from a flap of my hand. But I overdid it and the safe door tore apart.
59. I had many other superpowers. With the help of the Holy Spirit, I could fly. When I landed, people in fear scattered in different directions.
60. I could hold my breath for several hours. I already said that I had telepathy. Scratches on my body healed in minutes or seconds. I was so fast that I could catch a bullet on the fly. I felt people and objects not only in front, but also behind me through radio waves of the brain.
61. But these are all trifles: the main superpower that I had is that my brain turned into a computer. This is the last superpowers, which I had, and she steadily kept for about one month. This ability appeared with the help of the Holy Spirit through the training of the brain: I zealously or thought, or prayed all the time.
62. I have already said that I once counted a computer program in my mind. Like other superpowers, the super-mind or its fragments sometimes appeared for short intervals, then it disappeared. But after a while, I stably became a computer.
63. Using my super-brain, I probably discovered more scientific knowledge than the rest of humanity (I later forgot everything).
64. After my “fall,” I again became a sinful person, the same as you and forgot everything. In fact, I only remember that it was very tough, but I do not remember the details.
65. And one more thing: When I spoke with several people at once, I counted our conversation and managed to control them so that the different questions that each of them asked had the same answer. People in fear jumped away from me because of amazement, realizing that I answered several questions at once with the same phrase.
66. So, I consistently became a superman and a super computer. It lasted about a month. But once I turned into an ordinary person again. When I realized that I was no longer superman, I wept for half a year. After six months, I began to continue the life of an ordinary person.
67. My mother once told me that I was “burning” too much and it could damage my health. A few hours later I remembered it and felt fear. At the same time, my brain was hanged because of fear and became just like the brain of an ordinary person.
68. At that moment I literally fell to the ground. After that, I tried to figure out in my mind how I would get up, but I realized that I can no longer count like before. I got up with difficulty, because I forgot how ordinary people (not supers) move.
69. I thought: I am weak, sick, stupid. I have already said that I was crying six months about lost supernatural abilities.
70. Imagine if I stayed a computer for a long time? Could I prevent the economic crisis by calculating the economy? Could I build a thermonuclear reactor and save mankind from oil dependence? And when I was preaching, people lie on the ground because they could not resist my words. I think I could do a lot.
71. I have not yet said that some of the stages of becoming a superman were very difficult, as I was experiencing “passion” (that is, strong feelings). After the fall, I went through the psychological difficulties of becoming a superman in roughly the opposite order.
72. I am now a mathematician. Despite the fact that I do not have a scientific degree, I made serious discoveries.
73. When I made my first discoveries, it was a fun before death, I did not expect to publish them, because I thought that my mother would kill me either with a skillet on the head, or starve me.
74. She declared that I was “not interested in anything”, because I stopped reading horoscopes, etc. For this, she severely punished me.
75. Mother gave me very little money or did not give at all, I was starving.
76. Once in a Baptist church after the meeting, I said: “I have no money, I have nothing to eat, help!” They ignored me. I thought: maybe I have already died and they do not see me? I picked up someone else’s bag, I was asked to put it back; it means I did not die, I thought.
77. Whatever I asked in the church, first a Baptist, then Pentecostal-Charismatic, I was ignored (except for the Baptist woman who gave me 50 rubles, which were afterwards confiscated by my mother).
78. Once she kicked me out of the house as a punishment for my faith (this, of course, was illegal, since I had the right to live in an apartment). When I contacted the police, they kicked me out, giving a kick in the ass.
79. Then I ate grass because I had no other food.
80. When I was kicked out of the house and deprived of food, I turned to people: “Evil people, bastards, help me!” Because I believe that people are evil (and they need salvation from sin by the Lord Jesus Christ) and say “Good people help!” would be untrue.
81. One person, at my request, gave me a chocolate bar so that I would not die of hunger. But I didn’t have the strength to eat it. I fell and the chocolate fell next to me. I did not have the strength to reach out and reach for the chocolate bar. I then thought that I would die.
82. Once again, I was looking for work (illegal, because children in Russia are not allowed to work). I soiled my clothes and thought: this is death, because with dirty clothes I will not be able to find a job and die of hunger.
83. I lay in the street and thought that I would die soon. I cursed the city of Perm, for the fact that they almost killed me with hunger. I prophesied that the city would be flooded for it. I did not understand how the city could drown when there was no sea nearby. But one believer visited me. After he prayed for me (and also for saving the city), I was able to stand up. Three days later, I read in a newspaper that a riverboat had struck a lock in a power station dam. If he had broken through two or three more locks, the city would have been under water. That is, if I still died of hunger, the floodgates would burst completely and the city would be flooded. This is because it was the city that would be responsible for my death.
84. I tried to make a crime to be put in jail and I had food. I broke in front of a policeman shop window, imitating a robbery, he beat me, but did not arrest.
85. The mother even confiscated my scholarship at the university. She gave me money only on target expenditure, on food. And this money was not enough for it to be half full.
86. I had other problems, too.
87. When I was still a schoolboy, I was in a math camp for gifted children. Teachers praised me and predicted a great future for me. I told mathematics teachers that my life could be useless, because I could die of hunger due to conflicts and communication problems. I asked them to work on becoming mediators between me and the rest of society. But they did not want to work on it.
88. Also while studying at the university, I made a mathematical discovery worthy of a Nobel level award.
89. Then I decided to fight until victory: curse the city of Perm and all of Russia so that the cities would be destroyed by nuclear weapons. Then I was a real Pharisee who drains a mosquito and swallows a camel: it seemed normal to me to burn the whole city and millions of people, and, say, to kill the mother, rob the store to eat or do something like that a great sin. I was planning to somehow raise money for an air ticket and by force of spirit to arrange a nuclear war just during my flight, so that the plane could be landed abroad.
90. Once upon a time, two American missionaries beat me up. Then I told the angels: “Destroy two skyscrapers with airplanes!” You know what happened on September 11th.
91. Later, reading the Bible, I realized that I should be humble, and not to fight for myself.

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Preachers usually teach that every word of Bible is addressed personally to you and should be accepted by the heart.

It sounds appealing, but is it true? Now I think it is not so.

Before I thought so: If I interpret Bible without rude errors (such as messed grammar gender or number), then this is necessarily a correct interpretation, because it is a word of God personally to me and God will provide that I could understand it right. Otherwise why would God speak with me, if He does not warrant that I will understand Him correctly?

It is a pride to consider that my interpretation is correct, even if this is based on considering it a word of God to me. Also I thought that if some fragment of Bible is similar in the sense to some topic, then God really and definitely speaks about this topic (for example, having found such words as “palm tree”, “ostrich”, “hyena” in fragments of Hebrew Torah original words, I decided that I to become a missionary in Africa, however I am now not about this). It is a rather logical conclusion from what the preachers teach. But this method of interpretation leads to false prophecies.

I will point an example of a false prophecy which I had in the past.

I translated Jn. 19:23-25 from Greek in an unusual way: “… soldiers (of the celestial army), spreading in couches, who make it stay stable and insert, staying near, and continue safe and healthy and do not shame, staying ready in the presence of others, they made themselves companions and reserved them for themselves, took them (somebody’s personality) into possession, giving her access to themselves, took by hands (the personality to use her), not rejecting but receiving what is offered, the garments of Jesus to put them onto themselves… Also the tunic (holy garments). But the tunic was whole from above, the north of one third of the heaven, woven through all… And they stayed in presence of others ready near the cross of Jesus: mother of Jesus and the sister of the mother Mary and the wife of Clope and Mary Magdalene (that is raised bed).”
After reading this I concluded that the “tunic” is spiritually mother of Jesus, saint Mary, and I should “put on” her onto myself, that is to marry her.

Also I read: “25 Now there stood by the cross of Jesus his mother, and his mother’s sister, Mary the wife of Cleophas, and Mary Magdalene. 26 When Jesus therefore saw his mother, and the disciple standing by, whom he loved, he said to his mother, Woman, behold your son! 27 Then said he to the disciple, Behold your mother! And from that hour that disciple took her to his own home.” Certainly I decided that I am this disciple and I should took the mother of Jesus into my home that is marry her.

I considered that the spirit of saint Mary descended on a daughter of the president Putin (at birth or later, I don’t know) and I must marry her.

Thinking that I fulfill the will of God, I started to masturbate thinking about Mary. I was sure she feels it telepathically and also loves me. It is certainly stupid, but I thought that so I fulfill the will of God.

The ideas behind this were: So I prove superiority of Protestants over Orthodoxes: they pray to saint Mary, but I, excuse me, have her. So I performed against social inequality and religious discrimination: poor because of the religious discrimination sectarian marries the president’s daughter. And certainly it is a parody of a sect: a sectarian marries saint Mary. Also this was a protest against superfluous formality in sexual relations (kinda that a marriage must necessarily be registered, and if not registered then this is a fornication): just think, holy onanist! And also my pride: I remembered that I heard somewhere some legend, that if saint Mary cannot find for the most worthy man a wife she descends from the heaven and become his wife herself; and I am kinda a great mathematician, but I was not rewarded like I am worthy but reversely nearly starved to death; lo, it’s my reward. And it should have sound tough in Russian: “I had His mother!”
I can note that Mary, despite of expected, really descended from the heaven and showed me many wonders. I saw an energetic UFO, weird spiral rotating snow, lowered to extremely low altitude clouds, the TV started to speak with me from the face of Mary, etc. And I just felt her presence. It looks like this saint also decided that this prophecy is true.
By the way I didn’t attempt to get to Moscow and find her, because I was sure that God anyway will make our meeting.

Then I found one more prophecy. I decided that because no one congratulated on the wedding (because I already had her and must be considered her husband), my city Perm must be destroyed by nuclear weapon. I reasons so: if they don’t accept that my love is real, then they don’t accept a real man myself (can a real man have a not real love?); if I am not accepted as real, then I am discriminated and attempted to be starved to death; and so if people don’t accept that my life is real then certainly the city must be burned.
I concluded this from the words of Jesus:

(Mt. 22:2-7) “2 The kingdom of heaven is like to a certain king, which made a marriage for his son, 3 And sent forth his servants to call them that were bidden to the wedding: and they would not come. 4 Again, he sent forth other servants, saying, Tell them which are bidden, Behold, I have prepared my dinner: my oxen and my fatted calves are killed, and all things are ready: come to the marriage. 5 But they made light of it, and went their ways, one to his farm, another to his merchandise: 6 And the remnant took his servants, and entreated them spitefully, and slew them. 7 But when the king heard thereof, he was wroth: and he sent forth his armies, and destroyed those murderers, and burned up their city.”

I decided that the “son of the king” is myself, because Bible calls believers children of God. The servants of the king are angels which made wonders and spoke by TV about Mary.

I traversed the city and shouted that it will be a nuclear war soon, to be recognized as a great prophet when this happens.

It finished with that I added to my prophecy that the nuclear war in Perm will happen before the end of the autumn, but this has not happened and I was forced to recognize that I was wrong.

The conclusion: If we count that every word of Bible is directed personally to me as most preachers teach, we can fall into a false prophecy.

There is much harm from false prophecies: I was to busy to find myself a real wife, conflicted with everybody, discredited the faith, lost much time. Also I concentrated to much on my personal prophecies to the detriment of studying other passages of the Bible.

Think for yourself: Is this word of God personally addressed to you: (Num. 26:31) “And of Asriel, the family of the Asrielites: and of Shechem, the family of the Shechemites.” I believe that there is some hidden meaning in it, but personally I don’t understand it. How can this word be addressed to me if I don’t even understand its spiritual meaning at all?

The main source of false prophecies is that we give our thoughts for revelation from God.
(Mat. 7:15-20) “15 Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves. 16 You shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles? 17 Even so every good tree brings forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree brings forth evil fruit. 18 A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit. 19 Every tree that brings not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire. 20 Why by their fruits you shall know them.” The false prophetic concept that every word of Bible is directed personally to me come to us in sheep’s clothing, but you have seen the fruits of this concept. Cast this concept into the fire.

It looks like that Bible contradicts itself on whether Christians (I mean true Christians) are sinful or sinless:

(1Jn. 3:8-9) “8 He that commits sin is of the devil; for the devil sins from the beginning. For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that he might destroy the works of the devil. 9 Whoever is born of God does not commit sin; for his seed remains in him: and he cannot sin, because he is born of God.”

(Jam. 3:2) “For in many things we all stumble …”

My theory on this:

All others except of evangelical Christians are unconditional sinners.

Devil has damaged our software that we cannot behave right.

This is often manifested in theft, adultery, homosexuality, telling lies, etc. You know it. For example I was a maniacal killer before I became a Christian.

We are saved in the sense that we have new errorless software from God.

But this new software also requires much more powerful computer than our brain to function properly. In the brain the software much lags and thus behaves wrong.

When we die, our mind is transferred to a more powerful computer and begins to work without bugs:

(Rom. 6:7) “For he that is dead is freed from sin.”

The difference between Christians and non-Christians is whether our software is already ready to work bug free (and develop infinitely) provided it is transferred to a powerful enough computer.

The installation of new software happens when we accept that Jesus Christ died and resurrected for us to enable us to install this new software (as Bible calls it “incorruptible seed of God”). If you haven’t yet accepted the new software call God to free you from sin and install on you this new software, based only on the sacrifice of Jesus and your new faith. It is called “to be born again” in Bible.

See more about repentance at http://books.portonvictor.org/repent/