Author: Victor Porton

  • Christ in us is the dream of glory

    In my opinion, the word “hope” in the Gospel is better to be translated “dream”. For example:

    (Heb. 11:1) “Now faith is the substance of things dreamed for, the evidence of things not seen.”

    Faith works through dream. We dream and our dream is accomplished.

    (1Thes. 4) “13 But I would not have you to be ignorant, brothers, concerning them which are asleep, that you sorrow not, even as others which have no dream. 14 For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so them also which sleep in Jesus will God bring with him. 15 For this we say to you by the word of the Lord, that we which are alive and remain to the coming of the Lord shall not prevent them which are asleep.”

    1Thes. 4:13 says that unbelievers don’t have dream. True dream is only in Christ.

    (Colossians 1) 23 If you continue in the faith grounded and settled, and be not moved away from the dream of the gospel, which you have heard, and which was preached to every creature which is under heaven; whereof I Paul am made a minister; 24 Who now rejoice in my sufferings for you, and fill up that which is behind of the afflictions of Christ in my flesh for his body’s sake, which is the church: 25 Whereof I am made a minister, according to the dispensation of God which is given to me for you, to fulfill the word of God; 26 Even the mystery which has been hid from ages and from generations, but now is made manifest to his saints: 27 To whom God would make known what is the riches of the glory of this mystery among the Gentiles; which is Christ in you, the hope of glory: 28 Whom we preach, warning every man, and teaching every man in all wisdom; that we may present every man perfect in Christ Jesus: 29 Where unto I also labor, striving according to his working, which works in me mightily.

    This says about the dream of gospel, that is the dream we have in our life based on gospel revelations. I think what is preached in gospel is the most important thing of gospel, that is the most important thing is to live in the dream.

    The dream was accomplished through the sufferings as related to described in this my sermon. The dream is the essence of the life of the church not only in this age but in the entire eternity too. The ministry (purpose of the life) of Paul was to make dispensation of God that is accomplishment of the dream in the eternity, as the word of God eternally accomplishes. It is a mystery which is now is manifested only to saints (these who believe).

    And now to the main revelation of this blog post: Christ in us is the dream of glory. In other words, Christ in us is the dream of hype. He exists in us in the form of our dream. It is our only purpose to reach as much hype as possible in all the eternity. We are bloggers in God’s Internet which is Christ. The hype is among gentiles that is among these who are lower than us. The hype leads to richness (both in the future world and in this world). The hype is accomplished by understanding of mysteries. We preach Christ in us that is our internal aspiration to hype. To reach this all kinds of “wisdom” (knowledge) is necessary. We do the work to reach this purpose with mighty power of Christ in us.

    (Psalms 2:8) “Ask of me, and I shall give you the heathen for your inheritance, and the uttermost parts of the earth for your possession.”

    Ask the Lord to overcome nations using hype. Receive their authority and richness into your possession.

    (1Thes. 2) “4 But as we were allowed of God to be put in trust with the gospel, even so we speak; not as pleasing men, but God, which tries our hearts. 5 For neither at any time used we flattering words, as you know, nor a cloak of covetousness; God is witness: 6 Nor of men sought we glory, neither of you, nor yet of others, when we might have been burdensome, as the apostles of Christ.”

    We don’t seek hype from man, but we receive it together the hype in the heaven.

    (Jn. 5) “39 Search the scriptures; for in them you think you have eternal life: and they are they which testify of me. 40 And you will not come to me, that you might have life. 41 I receive not glory from men. 42 But I know you, that you have not the love of God in you. 43 I am come in my Father’s name, and you receive me not: if another shall come in his own name, him you will receive. 44 How can you believe, which receive glory one of another, and seek not the glory that comes from God only?”

    The eternal life is thought accomplished by searching the scriptures. Everything in the scripture tells about Jesus. We often forget to come to Jesus to have life. Jesus does not receive hype from men. Jesus comes in his Father name, we often receive these who praise themselves. We believe in receiving eternal hype which comes only from God.

    (1Pet. 1) “23 Being born again, not of corruptible seed, but of incorruptible, by the word of God, which lives and stays for ever. 24 For all flesh is as grass, and all the glory of man as the flower of grass. The grass wither, and the flower thereof falls away: 25 But the word of the Lord endures for ever. And this is the word which by the gospel is preached to you.”

    It is about the eternal life. It starts with the birth again that is installation of new God’s software on us, which is called incorruptible seed. This seed is the word of God put into our hearts. It develops eternally and never will be uninstalled. The glory (hype) of man is not true as it does not persist in the eternity. The word of the Lord is not broken by any obstacles for ever. This is the text of the Gospel, and this is the thing which is preached.

  • My spiritual way

    1. In this sermon I will tell about my Christian life. This is a very inspiring story.
    2. I was born in 1980 in city Perm, Russia.
    3. In the childhood I was an atheist. When I was 9 years old, I decided that nothing (nothing at all) exists. With this philosophy I sometimes hit walls because didn’t believe that walls exist.
    4. I also tried to kill myself. For example, when a crawler tractor was passing by, I tried to put my head under the caterpillar. Once (being a guest in Kazakhstan), I got out of bed with the firm intention to swim in the middle of the Irtysh River to drown; but they asked me where I was going, and I had to go back to bed.
    5. My cousin Svetlana promoted to me a certain religion, which I will not discuss in detail now. At first I laughed, but because of this I wondered: maybe Svetlana’s religion is wrong, but does God indeed exist? After reflection and inner struggle, I came to the conclusion that God exists (and His creation also exists). I refused to commit suicide and decided to find the true religion. I believed that among all religions there should be one true one, and decided to find the true religion. It was at the age of 9 years.
    6. Once I saw the Bible for 1000 rubles. Before hyperinflation, it was a very large amount, but I would buy it if I had money.
    7. Two or three years later, I received the Gospel of John as a gift from some religious organization. After reading the Gospel of John (albeit a seriously flawed translation of the synod of the Russian Orthodox Church), I thought: this is so well written that it cannot be invented by man, it must be true. But I also thought that I had not yet read the books of so-called “great writers”, such as Leo Tolstoy, Dostoevsky and others. Later, when I studied Leo Tolstoy at school, I came to the conclusion that Leo Tolstoy was not a “great writer,” if we compare him with the Gospel. Besides, after reading the Gospel, I came to the conclusion that the Orthodox Church is not a real church, but if the Gospel is true, then there must be a real church corresponding to the Gospel somewhere – so I guessed that there are Protestants without even knowing the words “Protestant”. I also thought that you had to be a real hero to follow the gospel in this hostile world.
    8. Later, I received the full text of the New Testament. Maybe then I was 12-13 years old.
    9. Later, for some time I was inclined to Eastern religions, but once I believed in the Gospel and rejected Eastern religions.
    10. I wanted to do good, but I could not: I was possessed by demons or, as psychiatrists would say, I had schizophrenia (Later I will tell you how Christ cured me) and the devil forced me do evil.
    11. It began with the fact that from the age of five I mortally hated fairy tales (and was ready to kill anyone who somehow reminded me of fairy tales), because when I heard something about fairy tales, I went crazy: I started to think that I am a fabulous character (for example, the humpbacked beast). From the same age, I had bursts of anger: I ran around the room in circles and pounded my hands on the furniture.
    12. Later, my madness progressed: for example, I began to see dragons. Where do dragons come from? They entered the building through the walls. Dragons bit (more precisely, took into the mouth and chewed) me. The pain was real.
    13. Sometimes it seemed to me that I was in the jungle (in reality, being at home).
    14. Once I found myself in the other side of the city a moment after I was in another place. I realized that a part of my memory fell out, as if cutting a fragment of a film and sticking it together without this fragment.
    15. My nonsense was on various topics, but perhaps the main “characters” were: toad, crocodile, elephant and tank. I thought that I and other people were toads, crocodiles, elephants and tanks. I was afraid that the crocodile would eat me, the tank would rape me, and so on.
    16. To any words “X” I answered: “two Xes”. For example, if they asked me: are you crazy? I could answer: I am two crazies. “Two” meant not what normal people put into this word, but “not one,” that is, “nothing.”
    17. Another feature of my nonsense was to rearrange the letters. I rearranged words or the first letters: for example, “two crocodiles” turned into “cro twocodiles”. And I thought that the nonsense that I said is reality. Or, for example, to the question: “Do you go to a school?” I could answer “The school goes to me.” This was accompanied by the delusion of grandeur, since I thought that no one could attend school without me.
    18. Once I went to a psychiatric hospital, but instead of asking for help, I said: “I will kill all psychiatrists!” I was kicked out. Once, I tried to make a bomb to blow up a mental hospital. I called the police, telling them that I was making a bomb. They confiscated the bomb, but did not pass me on to psychiatrists.
    19. I forgot my name, I forgot how to read and write. It was really terrible: to see the book and understand that I can no longer read.
    20. Sometimes I realized that I was crazy. But this did not help: I thought: my thoughts were wrong and often considered just the right thoughts to be nonsense. For example, I thought: It is crazy to consider me a man, because, in fact, I am a toad. Or I thought: Crocodiles do not exist, crocodiles are a fairy tale. Sometimes I understood that my thoughts were self-contradictory and fell to the floor because I did not understand what to do now.
    21. Reading math books helped me. Also reading the gospel. But as I went more and more crazy, any reading began to drive me crazy.
    22. I did everything I heard: If I heard the word “jump,” I would start jumping; if I heard the word “rape”, I tried to rape someone.
    23. Sometimes I growled at people. I bit people, dogs and wheels of cars.
    24. Sometimes I thought I was a Hitler. I also said: “It was an ordinary Hitler, and I am a great Hitler.”
    25. Sometimes my right side fought with the left side, to the blood.
    26. Once, as a demon possessed, I tried to destroy the building of a Baptist church by throwing a car at it. At this I pulled away the bumper from the car. After that, my whole body ached because the devil overloaded my muscles.
    27. I was also a killer maniac, that is, I regularly attacked people with a knife to kill.
    28. Sometimes I said: I do not want to kill, but the devil forces me to. I also stated: I do not want to kill, but I am a maniac and I cannot not to kill. In my inner essence, I did not want to kill, but later, when the devil took possession of me in a greater degree, I was not sure if I wanted to serve the devil in my inner essence.
    29. Once I met a woman mother with a baby in a stroller. I told her: “Call a psychiatrist. If you do not call a psychiatrist, I will kill your child.” But she ignored my words. Then I took a stone and tried to kill the child. She made a very quick movement and intercepted the stone. As far as I remember, the psychiatrist was not called.
    30. Once I told a policeman: “I am a maniac killer, give me a gun.” Oddly enough, the policeman gave me a gun. Then I tried to shoot this policeman, but another policeman took away my gun.
    31. Once I met a group of people listening to a tape recorder. I declared that I would kill them. I also said: “I will kill the tape recorder!” I crushed it on the ground. After that, I tried to kill the people.
    32. Once I met a company of blacks from Africa. I growled and said that I would kill them. One of them replied: “You are a shaman, you can do whatever you want.” So, the same demons possessed me and African pagans.
    33. Once I met a group of people and said: “I want to kill as many people as possible and kill myself!” They turned out to be Muslim terrorists. They were delighted, brought me to their hideout, took out a shahid belt and put it on me. Immediately after that, I tried to blow myself up and the terrorists. They stopped me and took back the belt.
    34. Once again, I met a group of people and said: “I’m a maniac killer. I want to kill someone.” They said they wanted to use me as a killer and gave me the gun and the address of the victim. I went “on the mission”, but tried to kill the first comer. They took the gun and one of them said: “It was a bad idea to use a maniac as a killer, he would kill a wrong one.”
    35. In addition to schizophrenia, I had other illnesses that Christ subsequently cured. I had an incoordination: I often ran into a joint or a wall when I tried to enter the door. And in general, I was a sick child. One day, a Baptist preacher told me that I must be strengthened in spirit and after a few months of such spiritual practice I was practically healthy.
    36. At fifteen, the demon almost completely destroyed my mind and my condition quickly deteriorated. At intervals of time when I was in my right mind, I realized that a little more and I would most likely become a fool for life.
    37. I felt terrified when I realized that I could not count anymore and could not read: I could see the text, but I could not understand anything.
    38. The demon prevented me from converting to Christ: making me forget about wanting to convert, depriving me of wanting to convert, etc., as well as by heresies (I did not believe in the divinity of Christ, which made my conversion impossible). But once I converted; a week later it would probably be too late, since the demon would completely destroy my mind.
    39. I tried unsuccessfully to appeal many times. I remained a killer maniac, going to hell and dangerous to other people. My conversion did not work because I did not believe in the divinity of Christ.
    40. On Sundays, I sat in a Baptist church and wept, knowing that I was not saved. I listened to sermons and slowly began to understand that I should be saved by Christ through faith only.
    41. For some reason I did not believe in the Holy Trinity. Perhaps Jehovah’s Witnesses influenced me (however, now I cannot remember) who do not believe in the Trinity.
    42. Once I confessed that I believed in the Holy Trinity. On the same day (August 8, 1995) I climbed under the covers and called for God in my mind.
    43. When I got out of the blanket, I thought that someone had turned on the light bulb (or the sun came out from behind the clouds). In fact, no one turned on the light bulb, but my vision changed.
    44. I felt a change in my mind. From now on, I am a normal person. I can read and count, I do not bite, I do not see dragons, etc. This is a miracle that happened at one moment while I was under the covers.
    45. Over the next few hours, I realized that I was no longer a crazy maniac, because I no longer had hallucinations, rave or anger.
    46. This time period I was at home. Three days after the conversion, I went outside and was very surprised: I saw not only a tree or the whole forest, but focused attention on all the trees at the same time, not just one or two trees. This is similar to when someone updates their computer and can play video games at a higher resolution.
    47. After three months of my new life, I saw a math problem in a textbook and instead of solving it for some time, as it was before, I instantly understood the answer. The whole decision happened in my mind in one moment.
    48. Immediately after my conversion, when I turned from a maniac into a normal person, my parents, their relatives and friends began to shout that I had become a sectarian and an abnormal one. Apparently, the demons that came out of me, entered into them.
    49. However, later I was tempted, incorrectly taught in the Baptist church, etc., which hindered the development of spiritual gifts.
    50. Once a preacher said that preachers, when they preach, do not mistake. Then, when I was a beginning Christian, it seemed to me quite natural and I took it for granted. But when that preacher began to preach, he made some kind of mistake (I don’t remember which one). From that moment on, I began to search for religious truth only in the Bible.
    51. So, I was crazy, converted to Christ and recovered in one moment. Then I will tell you how I turned into a superman (for a period of time, about one or two months).
    52. After some time, with the help of the Holy Spirit, I had superpowers: an ideal photographic (like a camera) memory, telepathy, etc.
    53. One day I was sitting in front of a computer at a school and writing a program. Suddenly I considered this program in my mind as a computer. This was the beginning of the transformation of my brain into a real computer.
    54. I also had a super-power, like Samson, as well as super speed: I began to flap my hands at supersonic speed.
    55. The power appeared and disappeared again.
    56. When the power appeared unexpectedly, it happened that I was thrown into the air: the muscles in my legs “jerked” (that is, they moved sharply) with too much force. However, it was only when the power appeared unexpectedly. When I consistently had strength for some time, I could restrict the strength of the movements and did not throw me into the air. I think this is what Ilya of Murom meant when he said that “the earth does not hold me”: he was thrown into the air with every movement. Ilya of Murom had to drink “dead water” in order to reduce his strength, so that the Earth would hold him. Since my “inability to be hold” passed after I had been in full force for some time and I didn’t need to become weaker so that the Earth held me, then probably when I had strength I was much stronger than Ilya of Murom.
    57. I could do a huge amount of work and not get tired. My body became as hard as steel. I could break a knife by squeezing its blade in my hand. Once I decided to check if I could squeeze the steel, I took a steel object (probably it was a nut or bolt) and clamped it between two hands. Suddenly for me, a piece of steel melted in my hands from the tremendous force with which I squeezed it. Molten steel, flowed on my hands, without causing me any harm. I easily broke the stones with my hands.
    58. Once I tried to close the steel safe with a wave of air from a flap of my hand. But I overdid it and the safe door tore apart.
    59. I had many other superpowers. With the help of the Holy Spirit, I could fly. When I landed, people in fear scattered in different directions.
    60. I could hold my breath for several hours. I already said that I had telepathy. Scratches on my body healed in minutes or seconds. I was so fast that I could catch a bullet on the fly. I felt people and objects not only in front, but also behind me through radio waves of the brain.
    61. But these are all trifles: the main superpower that I had is that my brain turned into a computer. This is the last superpowers, which I had, and she steadily kept for about one month. This ability appeared with the help of the Holy Spirit through the training of the brain: I zealously or thought, or prayed all the time.
    62. I have already said that I once counted a computer program in my mind. Like other superpowers, the super-mind or its fragments sometimes appeared for short intervals, then it disappeared. But after a while, I stably became a computer.
    63. Using my super-brain, I probably discovered more scientific knowledge than the rest of humanity (I later forgot everything).
    64. After my “fall,” I again became a sinful person, the same as you and forgot everything. In fact, I only remember that it was very tough, but I do not remember the details.
    65. And one more thing: When I spoke with several people at once, I counted our conversation and managed to control them so that the different questions that each of them asked had the same answer. People in fear jumped away from me because of amazement, realizing that I answered several questions at once with the same phrase.
    66. So, I consistently became a superman and a super computer. It lasted about a month. But once I turned into an ordinary person again. When I realized that I was no longer superman, I wept for half a year. After six months, I began to continue the life of an ordinary person.
    67. My mother once told me that I was “burning” too much and it could damage my health. A few hours later I remembered it and felt fear. At the same time, my brain was hanged because of fear and became just like the brain of an ordinary person.
    68. At that moment I literally fell to the ground. After that, I tried to figure out in my mind how I would get up, but I realized that I can no longer count like before. I got up with difficulty, because I forgot how ordinary people (not supers) move.
    69. I thought: I am weak, sick, stupid. I have already said that I was crying six months about lost supernatural abilities.
    70. Imagine if I stayed a computer for a long time? Could I prevent the economic crisis by calculating the economy? Could I build a thermonuclear reactor and save mankind from oil dependence? And when I was preaching, people lie on the ground because they could not resist my words. I think I could do a lot.
    71. I have not yet said that some of the stages of becoming a superman were very difficult, as I was experiencing “passion” (that is, strong feelings). After the fall, I went through the psychological difficulties of becoming a superman in roughly the opposite order.
    72. I am now a mathematician. Despite the fact that I do not have a scientific degree, I made serious discoveries.
    73. When I made my first discoveries, it was a fun before death, I did not expect to publish them, because I thought that my mother would kill me either with a skillet on the head, or starve me.
    74. She declared that I was “not interested in anything”, because I stopped reading horoscopes, etc. For this, she severely punished me.
    75. Mother gave me very little money or did not give at all, I was starving.
    76. Once in a Baptist church after the meeting, I said: “I have no money, I have nothing to eat, help!” They ignored me. I thought: maybe I have already died and they do not see me? I picked up someone else’s bag, I was asked to put it back; it means I did not die, I thought.
    77. Whatever I asked in the church, first a Baptist, then Pentecostal-Charismatic, I was ignored (except for the Baptist woman who gave me 50 rubles, which were afterwards confiscated by my mother).
    78. Once she kicked me out of the house as a punishment for my faith (this, of course, was illegal, since I had the right to live in an apartment). When I contacted the police, they kicked me out, giving a kick in the ass.
    79. Then I ate grass because I had no other food.
    80. When I was kicked out of the house and deprived of food, I turned to people: “Evil people, bastards, help me!” Because I believe that people are evil (and they need salvation from sin by the Lord Jesus Christ) and say “Good people help!” would be untrue.
    81. One person, at my request, gave me a chocolate bar so that I would not die of hunger. But I didn’t have the strength to eat it. I fell and the chocolate fell next to me. I did not have the strength to reach out and reach for the chocolate bar. I then thought that I would die.
    82. Once again, I was looking for work (illegal, because children in Russia are not allowed to work). I soiled my clothes and thought: this is death, because with dirty clothes I will not be able to find a job and die of hunger.
    83. I lay in the street and thought that I would die soon. I cursed the city of Perm, for the fact that they almost killed me with hunger. I prophesied that the city would be flooded for it. I did not understand how the city could drown when there was no sea nearby. But one believer visited me. After he prayed for me (and also for saving the city), I was able to stand up. Three days later, I read in a newspaper that a riverboat had struck a lock in a power station dam. If he had broken through two or three more locks, the city would have been under water. That is, if I still died of hunger, the floodgates would burst completely and the city would be flooded. This is because it was the city that would be responsible for my death.
    84. I tried to make a crime to be put in jail and I had food. I broke in front of a policeman shop window, imitating a robbery, he beat me, but did not arrest.
    85. The mother even confiscated my scholarship at the university. She gave me money only on target expenditure, on food. And this money was not enough for it to be half full.
    86. I had other problems, too.
    87. When I was still a schoolboy, I was in a math camp for gifted children. Teachers praised me and predicted a great future for me. I told mathematics teachers that my life could be useless, because I could die of hunger due to conflicts and communication problems. I asked them to work on becoming mediators between me and the rest of society. But they did not want to work on it.
    88. Also while studying at the university, I made a mathematical discovery worthy of a Nobel level award.
    89. Then I decided to fight until victory: curse the city of Perm and all of Russia so that the cities would be destroyed by nuclear weapons. Then I was a real Pharisee who drains a mosquito and swallows a camel: it seemed normal to me to burn the whole city and millions of people, and, say, to kill the mother, rob the store to eat or do something like that a great sin. I was planning to somehow raise money for an air ticket and by force of spirit to arrange a nuclear war just during my flight, so that the plane could be landed abroad.
    90. Once upon a time, two American missionaries beat me up. Then I told the angels: “Destroy two skyscrapers with airplanes!” You know what happened on September 11th.
    91. Later, reading the Bible, I realized that I should be humble, and not to fight for myself.
  • Where do false prophecies come from?

    “Catastrophically” ridiculous sermon, read even if you are an unbeliever. Don’t forget to like/share.

    Preachers usually teach that every word of Bible is addressed personally to you and should be accepted by the heart.

    It sounds appealing, but is it true? Now I think it is not so.

    Before I thought so: If I interpret Bible without rude errors (such as messed grammar gender or number), then this is necessarily a correct interpretation, because it is a word of God personally to me and God will provide that I could understand it right. Otherwise why would God speak with me, if He does not warrant that I will understand Him correctly?

    It is a pride to consider that my interpretation is correct, even if this is based on considering it a word of God to me. Also I thought that if some fragment of Bible is similar in the sense to some topic, then God really and definitely speaks about this topic (for example, having found such words as “palm tree”, “ostrich”, “hyena” in fragments of Hebrew Torah original words, I decided that I to become a missionary in Africa, however I am now not about this). It is a rather logical conclusion from what the preachers teach. But this method of interpretation leads to false prophecies.

    I will point an example of a false prophecy which I had in the past.

    I translated Jn. 19:23-25 from Greek in an unusual way: “… soldiers (of the celestial army), spreading in couches, who make it stay stable and insert, staying near, and continue safe and healthy and do not shame, staying ready in the presence of others, they made themselves companions and reserved them for themselves, took them (somebody’s personality) into possession, giving her access to themselves, took by hands (the personality to use her), not rejecting but receiving what is offered, the garments of Jesus to put them onto themselves… Also the tunic (holy garments). But the tunic was whole from above, the north of one third of the heaven, woven through all… And they stayed in presence of others ready near the cross of Jesus: mother of Jesus and the sister of the mother Mary and the wife of Clope and Mary Magdalene (that is raised bed).”
    After reading this I concluded that the “tunic” is spiritually mother of Jesus, saint Mary, and I should “put on” her onto myself, that is to marry her.

    Also I read: “25 Now there stood by the cross of Jesus his mother, and his mother’s sister, Mary the wife of Cleophas, and Mary Magdalene. 26 When Jesus therefore saw his mother, and the disciple standing by, whom he loved, he said to his mother, Woman, behold your son! 27 Then said he to the disciple, Behold your mother! And from that hour that disciple took her to his own home.” Certainly I decided that I am this disciple and I should took the mother of Jesus into my home that is marry her.

    I considered that the spirit of saint Mary descended on a daughter of the president Putin (at birth or later, I don’t know) and I must marry her.

    Thinking that I fulfill the will of God, I started to masturbate thinking about Mary. I was sure she feels it telepathically and also loves me. It is certainly stupid, but I thought that so I fulfill the will of God.

    The ideas behind this were: So I prove superiority of Protestants over Orthodoxes: they pray to saint Mary, but I, excuse me, have her. So I performed against social inequality and religious discrimination: poor because of the religious discrimination sectarian marries the president’s daughter. And certainly it is a parody of a sect: a sectarian marries saint Mary. Also this was a protest against superfluous formality in sexual relations (kinda that a marriage must necessarily be registered, and if not registered then this is a fornication): just think, holy onanist! And also my pride: I remembered that I heard somewhere some legend, that if saint Mary cannot find for the most worthy man a wife she descends from the heaven and become his wife herself; and I am kinda a great mathematician, but I was not rewarded like I am worthy but reversely nearly starved to death; lo, it’s my reward. And it should have sound tough in Russian: “I had His mother!”
    I can note that Mary, despite of expected, really descended from the heaven and showed me many wonders. I saw an energetic UFO, weird spiral rotating snow, lowered to extremely low altitude clouds, the TV started to speak with me from the face of Mary, etc. And I just felt her presence. It looks like this saint also decided that this prophecy is true.
    By the way I didn’t attempt to get to Moscow and find her, because I was sure that God anyway will make our meeting.

    Then I found one more prophecy. I decided that because no one congratulated on the wedding (because I already had her and must be considered her husband), my city Perm must be destroyed by nuclear weapon. I reasons so: if they don’t accept that my love is real, then they don’t accept a real man myself (can a real man have a not real love?); if I am not accepted as real, then I am discriminated and attempted to be starved to death; and so if people don’t accept that my life is real then certainly the city must be burned.
    I concluded this from the words of Jesus:

    (Mt. 22:2-7) “2 The kingdom of heaven is like to a certain king, which made a marriage for his son, 3 And sent forth his servants to call them that were bidden to the wedding: and they would not come. 4 Again, he sent forth other servants, saying, Tell them which are bidden, Behold, I have prepared my dinner: my oxen and my fatted calves are killed, and all things are ready: come to the marriage. 5 But they made light of it, and went their ways, one to his farm, another to his merchandise: 6 And the remnant took his servants, and entreated them spitefully, and slew them. 7 But when the king heard thereof, he was wroth: and he sent forth his armies, and destroyed those murderers, and burned up their city.”

    I decided that the “son of the king” is myself, because Bible calls believers children of God. The servants of the king are angels which made wonders and spoke by TV about Mary.

    I traversed the city and shouted that it will be a nuclear war soon, to be recognized as a great prophet when this happens.

    It finished with that I added to my prophecy that the nuclear war in Perm will happen before the end of the autumn, but this has not happened and I was forced to recognize that I was wrong.

    The conclusion: If we count that every word of Bible is directed personally to me as most preachers teach, we can fall into a false prophecy.

    There is much harm from false prophecies: I was to busy to find myself a real wife, conflicted with everybody, discredited the faith, lost much time. Also I concentrated to much on my personal prophecies to the detriment of studying other passages of the Bible.

    Think for yourself: Is this word of God personally addressed to you: (Num. 26:31) “And of Asriel, the family of the Asrielites: and of Shechem, the family of the Shechemites.” I believe that there is some hidden meaning in it, but personally I don’t understand it. How can this word be addressed to me if I don’t even understand its spiritual meaning at all?

    The main source of false prophecies is that we give our thoughts for revelation from God.
    (Mat. 7:15-20) “15 Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves. 16 You shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles? 17 Even so every good tree brings forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree brings forth evil fruit. 18 A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit. 19 Every tree that brings not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire. 20 Why by their fruits you shall know them.” The false prophetic concept that every word of Bible is directed personally to me come to us in sheep’s clothing, but you have seen the fruits of this concept. Cast this concept into the fire.

  • Are Christians sinful or sinless?

    It looks like that Bible contradicts itself on whether Christians (I mean true Christians) are sinful or sinless:

    (1Jn. 3:8-9) “8 He that commits sin is of the devil; for the devil sins from the beginning. For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that he might destroy the works of the devil. 9 Whoever is born of God does not commit sin; for his seed remains in him: and he cannot sin, because he is born of God.”

    (Jam. 3:2) “For in many things we all stumble …”

    My theory on this:

    All others except of evangelical Christians are unconditional sinners.

    Devil has damaged our software that we cannot behave right.

    This is often manifested in theft, adultery, homosexuality, telling lies, etc. You know it. For example I was a maniacal killer before I became a Christian.

    We are saved in the sense that we have new errorless software from God.

    But this new software also requires much more powerful computer than our brain to function properly. In the brain the software much lags and thus behaves wrong.

    When we die, our mind is transferred to a more powerful computer and begins to work without bugs:

    (Rom. 6:7) “For he that is dead is freed from sin.”

    The difference between Christians and non-Christians is whether our software is already ready to work bug free (and develop infinitely) provided it is transferred to a powerful enough computer.

    The installation of new software happens when we accept that Jesus Christ died and resurrected for us to enable us to install this new software (as Bible calls it “incorruptible seed of God”). If you haven’t yet accepted the new software call God to free you from sin and install on you this new software, based only on the sacrifice of Jesus and your new faith. It is called “to be born again” in Bible.

    See more about repentance at http://books.portonvictor.org/repent/

  • Why Bible is so hard for understanding?

    (1Cor. 14:38) “37 If any man think himself to be a prophet, or spiritual, let him acknowledge that the things that I write to you are the commandments of the Lord. 38 But if any man be ignorant, let him be ignorant.”

    This means that God gives us the task to understand Bible, but of the value is solving the task not the end result revelation. It would be too easy if Bible were written in plain text. God wants us to think and to believe.

  • The error of many Christians

    Many Christians make the following error:

    They “seek the will of God” looking at external circumstances and explicit revelations and ignore their own mind and feelings. But “circumstances” inside ourselves are also a part of the plan of God. Our mind and feelings are also a “circumstance” which God sends to us. After all, Christ is in us: (Col. 1:27) “which is Christ in you, the hope of glory”.

  • “Thanks you God that I am not like other people!”

    (Luk. 18:9-14) “9 And he spoke this parable to certain which trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and despised others: 10 Two men went up into the temple to pray; the one a Pharisee, and the other a publican. 11 The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I thank you, that I am not as other men are, extortionists, unjust, adulterers, or even as this publican. 12 I fast twice in the week, I give tithes of all that I possess. 13 And the publican, standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes to heaven, but smote on his breast, saying, God be merciful to me a sinner. 14 I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalts himself shall be abased; and he that humbles himself shall be exalted.”

    In the spiritual meaning of this proverb the pharisee and the publican are the same human. They are different aspects of our relation to God and to sin.

    Everything, even sin, has positive aspects. A positive aspect of sin is that it makes people different. I think sinless angels follow the same standard but sinners don’t follow any standard. We will remain different than other people even after we will be completely saved.

    So I thank God that I am different than other people. Many preachers teach that it is great to be unlike other people and we should thank God for this.

    But we are more justified when we just remember that our sins require God’s mercy.

    This is about us who trust in our mind that we are righteous in Christ.

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  • Evolution, transhumanism and anti-ageing remedy

    Bible about evolution

    In childhood I was an atheist. I was taught evolution theory as an unquestionable truth.

    Some time passed and I became a Christian. Yet I kept to believe in evolution theory. I was in a Baptist church and (with no reason, just to speak about something) said to a preacher from an other city: “It is great how evolution is described in the book of Genesis.” He said me back some standard creationists’ arguments (probably it was that “days” are literal days and that the plants could not be able to grow if they would wait yet millions years for appearance of light, as grass was created on the third day but the lights (including Sun) in expanse of the sky appeared only at the fourth day, and that death entered the world only after the sin of Adam whilst evolution is impossible without death).

    After hearing these arguments I momentarily converted into a creationist. I’ve said like this: If Bible says it it is true, not matter what science teaches.

    I keep to think this way: Bible is more authoritative than science for me. I believe Bible says truth and truth only not only on morality issues but on all kinds of topics, including science and history.

    Thus I should be a creationist, yep? My further study of Bible has shown that in Bible there are probably more arguments pro evolution rather than counter evolution.

    By and large, creationists have only one serious argument: the “days” in Genesis are literal days. But it can be for example about so to say “galactic days”: more stars near the Earth is day, less stars is night. Such days may long hundreds of millions of years and this apparently conform to the classic scientific theory. That God created the life on the Earth can be understood as the thing that God used evolution to create.

    New interpretation of the Bible

    I reveal you a secret: Initially Old Testament was written without vowels. The vowels were inserted later by Jewish scholars. We can insert other vowels and get an other meaning of the text. And that other meanings may be equally credible as the usual translation of Bible. Again: The meaning of Bible was restricted by Jewish tradition, and there are more meanings of the text. You can study Old Testament without vowels at this wiki site. (Don’t only read but also add your own translations! At that site it is explained how to interpret Hebrew text without vowels and you don’t need to become an expert linguist for that. The grammar of Hebrew without vowels is quite easy to learn.)

    I have explored first few chapters of Genesis. And I was surprised that it witnesses pro evolution. I’ve setup a wiki page where anyone can read others and add his own arguments pro or counter evolution.

    Next it follows my current opinion on evolution from literal biblical positions.

    Pro evolution arguments

    Here are some quotes from my alternative (that is without vowels) translation of Bible, which seem to support evolution:

    (Gen. 1:11) “Earth will sprout green plants producing descendant, fruit tree making fruit for its kind making progress of his offspring in it on the Earth”.
    (Gen. 1:25) “God has made relatives on the Earth by their kind” (if it is translated correctly, different kind of species are called relatives by Bible).
    (Gen. 1:29) “grass offspring bearing seed making progress on the surface of the entire Earth, and all trees making progress in their seed of the tree, offspring bearing seed”.
    (Gen. 1:31) “God saw his deal all (time) making advance” (becoming better).
    (Gen. 2:4) says about “generations” during God’s creation what may imply existence of death and thus evolution.

    Gen. 1:11 is especially strong: It says that trees are descendants of grass. It is what is commonly called macro-evolution.

    It is also difficult for creationists to explain, how predators and parasites have appeared.

    I maybe convinced or not convinced you that Bible teaches that there was the evolution. But you anyway should accept as I show below that Bible teaches that we should resist against the death.

    What does acceptance of the evolution theory changes in the practices of Christian life? If the theory of evolution is true, then the creation is not finished yet. And this means that we should use science to fight with imperfection of the creation: cancer, death, ecological problems, etc.

    People and monkeys

    Are people descendants of monkeys?

    At first it could seem “NO!” for a believing reader of Bible:

    (Gen. 2:7) “God Yahweh has formed Adam pulverized from soil and breath into his nose living spirit, and Adam became a living soul.”

    Reading it looks like a case of direct (non-evolutionary) creation.

    However I see no reason to assume that Gen. 2:7 describes a quick event. May the event described in Gen. 2:7 longs for millions years? Why not? If the evolution theory is true, humans were created from atoms of the soil breathing oxygen, exactly as described in Bible.

    So, does anything in Bible contradict to the theory that people are monkeys’ descendants?

    However, it is quite likely that some biotechnology of God (or an advanced civilization used by God) was used to transform monkeys into people. Why has God used a biotechnology, not direct creation? We do not know.

    Bible disagrees with modern science about the time period (as investigated by radiocarbon dating) of existence of man. But this can be easily explained by the fact that before the Flood the atmosphere of the Earth was different (so producing different quantities of carbon isotopes) and thus radiocarbon dating produces wrong results when analyzing events before the Flood. (Yes, I believe in the Flood over the entire Earth. It is described in errorless Bible and can’t be false.)

    You may ask: what’s about the first man, Adam? But first, why is it assumed that he was the very first man? And the second, it is necessary to consider someone from the people as the first full rights person.

    Anti-ageing remedy

    (Deut. 30:19-20) “19 I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both you and your seed may live: 20 That you may love the LORD your God, and that you may obey his voice, and that you may hold to him: for he is your life, and the length of your days: that you may dwell in the land which the LORD swore to your fathers, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, to give them.” Did God say choose death? He said: choose life.

    (Heb. 2:14-15) “14 For as much then as the children are partakers of flesh and blood, he also himself likewise took part of the same; that through death he might destroy him that had the power of death, that is, the devil; 15 And deliver them who through fear of death were all their lifetime subject to bondage.” Who has the power of the death? The devil! We must rebel against the devil and not submit to him.

    So, I myself intend to take the remedy for old age, as soon as I have the opportunity. By the way, as I understand it, you need to take it only once and it will act all your life, because it changes a person’s genetics.

    And do not be afraid on this about “mark of the beast”. Obviously, the mark of the beast is a microchip, not a pill.

    Devil and the evolution

    The devil created snakes and scorpions: (Luk. 10:18-19) “18 And he said to them, I beheld Satan as lightning fall from heaven. 19 Behold, I give to you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you.” Somebody may ask: what’s about the fact that snakes play an important role in the ecosystem? does the devil do good? This is the devil’s favorite way of work: embed your evil element into the system so that it is very difficult to extract without destroying the system.

    So the devil created the death from old age, a very important mechanism of evolution. How the evolution can continue without the death? Be sure, God has other variants, such as exchange of genes on the cellular level or even evolution under human control. After all, the evolution of single-celled creatures occurred without death from old age.

    The big brain arose as an evolutionary means of fighting the temptations of the devil. To simply control the body, the big brain is not very necessary, it is needed to combat temptations. Even trees have intelligence and can communicate with each other (probably, chemically):

    (Judg. 9:8-15) “8 The trees went forth on a time to anoint a king over them; and they said to the olive tree, Reign you over us. 9 But the olive tree said to them, Should I leave my fatness, with which by me they honor God and man, and go to be promoted over the trees? 10 And the trees said to the fig tree, Come you, and reign over us. 11 But the fig tree said to them, Should I forsake my sweetness, and my good fruit, and go to be promoted over the trees? 12 Then said the trees to the vine, Come you, and reign over us. 13 And the vine said to them, Should I leave my wine, which cheers God and man, and go to be promoted over the trees? 14 Then said all the trees to the bramble, Come you, and reign over us. 15 And the bramble said to the trees, If in truth you anoint me king over you, then come and put your trust in my shadow: and if not, let fire come out of the bramble, and devour the cedars of Lebanon.”

    Not with the simple ancient people communicated with the trees and asked for forgiveness when they were cut. However, this may take on perverted forms: (Jer. 3:6) “The LORD said also to me in the days of Josiah the king, Have you seen that which backsliding Israel has done? she is gone up on every high mountain and under every green tree, and there has played the harlot.”

    It’s written, that the creation felt into bondage of corruption: (Rom. 8:16-23) “16 The Spirit itself bears witness with our spirit, that we are the children of God: 17 And if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with him, that we may be also glorified together. 18 For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. 19 For the earnest expectation of the creature waits for the manifestation of the sons of God. 20 For the creature was made subject to vanity, not willingly, but by reason of him who has subjected the same in hope, 21 Because the creature itself also shall be delivered from the bondage of corruption into the glorious liberty of the children of God. 22 For we know that the whole creation groans and travails in pain together until now. 23 And not only they, but ourselves also, which have the first fruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting for the adoption, to wit, the redemption of our body.” And this means that the creation (animals, trees, etc.) not always were submit to corruption that is missing sense and mind. When there is no temptations, even animals with smaller brain would be able to be very smart. They wait when their mind will be free from corruption and they will become free again.

    More on transhumanism

    Obviously, I am against the attempts of transhumanists to interbreed the human and animals, for example to give us infrared vision from the snakes, because the Bible says (Lev. 19:19) “You shall not let your cattle engender with a diverse kind: you shall not sow your field with mingled seed.” I don’t know why this is disallowed by the Bible; maybe not to upset the balance of the ecosystem.

    If people will succeed to build an artificial intelligence comparable at least with our fallen human mind, how may this end? Most likely, it also will fall into temptation and become stupid like as people and animals became stupid. Hackers call this DoS attack, when they are seeking that a computer would be overloaded and become so to say “stupid”. The devil wants that everybody could be stupid.

  • Who has more troubles: righteous or sinner?

    Who has more troubles: righteous or sinner?

    Righteous should have less problems, because God helps him, right? Or do righteous have more troubles because they are attacked more by the devil?

    (Psalms 34:19) “Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the LORD delivers him out of them all.”

    There are more troubles with the righteous, but they are overcome.

    Note that this also applies first to the Jesus himself.